Hi Admin
I hope you are going well Hercs.
Chelle is amazing.
I dont feel I am breaking any confidences to let you know she has had surgery and had a stoma put in place and she seems to be managing that like you would expect...she just continues to work through it all. Unfortunately she lost her mother in law a few days ago so I think this will hit them hard, a loved one passing hits us all hard.
She is incredibly tired. If she was living in Australia I have no doubt she would be on DSP (disability) however the US is quite different.
They have moved into a new home without 3 levels and I think that has really helped, all those stairs.
She is just tired working when she should be resting but what can you do, the bills need to be paid.
The glaucoma dx has always been on the cards.
Blindness was something that just was with my Nanna.
I had a blind horse that freaked the neighbours out but if you kept her paddock the same she was happpy.
Yes I think it unsettled me deep down.
David it is good to have Jeff as a best friend.
He is a farmer and just doesnt stop...and a hundred other roles in his community.
He rings every morning to check I am ok and at least another time during the day.
I enjoy going up to his farm and seeing the chickens and the sheep and the goat who I am wary of as she has huge horns and Mozart loves it up there too.
As for my children I will bare my soul.
Youngest daughter has alienated herself from the entire family whch breaks my heart but I can understand.
They were the ones who had to call the ambulance when I had the disassociative episode in august last year and this illness has made life difficult for them.
In August she also had to bury her house mate, but I miss her.
Eldest daughter has finished her enrolled nursing and is now going to University to do her Registered nursing.
She is the amazing daughter that picks up th pieces after her father and myself.
She is a great Mum too and the grand daughters are both at school now and they are just gorgeous but I am biased of course.
My son cares for his father after his fall off that double storey roof...he has just had a knee put in the smashed leg and he works in the valley as required.
I am trying to encourage him to get back to study but he worrys abut his father.
I miss him too but I could not afford to keep him here without him helping financially and he was not prepared to do that yet he helps his father so that puzzles me some what but we catch up once a fortnight or so.
I do get lonely sometimes and pdoc thinks I should not have Jeff on my agenda...but I tried putting space there and we just miss each other. We have been friends for at least 4 years now. It would be easier to have someone close by but at the same time I have to manage the symptoms i get on a daily basis so it is a blessing in some respects.Pdoc sees me once a week and will see me easter saturday, since my disassociative state he worries too, my eldest daughter was furious with him for not hospitalizing me sooner, She speaks her mind regardless of how many letters you have after your name
I think you manage admirably David with your heart condition and I am guessing you still live in a multi storey home.
Some things you just need two people to do jobs with. I am glad you still have Don in your life.Jeff always arrives with a box of groceries...lol..he sends flowers on appropriate occassions but he is very down to earth.
I have got this eye drop thing down pat now. I keep them in the fridge so they are cold so when the first drop hits my eye i feel it and stop squeezing.
Thanks for listening if you have got this far.
Cheers to all.
Now I have a survival kit in the laundry for the animals, the refuge stations always have people food but not animal food so I have a stock for them...just in case.
