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Post by David on Dec 30, 2017 16:08:48 GMT
Hi David Tried going back to uni but not up to it. I spent 3 weeks in hospital in August I now disassociate...no memory of what I do, 4 car accidents in one day. My meds seem to be doing the job. Hope you are all well. xxxxx Hi Sue Thank you for getting back to me ... I appreciate what you say about not now considering going back in to education. A wise move given the circumstances of what you share here. Here's wishing you and yours, all the very best for the new year. Yours as ever in solid friendship, embracing ten years or more, David x |
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Post by sue13 on Jan 4, 2018 18:47:56 GMT
Yes disassociation is as close as my children can view as a split personality. I came out of hospital and thought the children had bought me new things...no it was my card that had purchased them...it is like a twilight zone Keith and the only drugs I am on are my prescribed ones and throw in 2 glasses of wine a week to make me feel human. Fortunately the kids see me write gobbly gook on face book and call the ambulance, this time as I had written my eulogy and sent it to them he would not let them in unitl he had found me alive, then they called the ambulance who I didnt want to go with so they were going to section me under the mental health act, daughter (nurse) said Mum go voluntarily it will be so much easier so I picked up my overnight bag and went. I got even sicker in hospital, a whole new med regime was put into place...I just cant take any pressure.
So what happens new years day...my hot water service blows up $2000...I have that in the bank but it takes 30 days to clear.
It might be summer here but a cold shower is cold.
I was a bit distraught when my gentleman friend rang...he said calm down...I will pay for it and when your cash comes through you pay me back...how lucky can a psycho be. He came down , a 2 hour drive, and got it working enough for me to have a shower, he takes in strays, I think I am one of them.
So tired after the Christmas clean and cook and clean, plus my son turned 21 and it was the first time his father and I sat at the same table but my farmer friend was invited too so he behaved.
Just one day at a time.
My kis gave me roses for Christmas and my son planted them.They are La Sevillana a bush rose, already they are bringing me joy.
No Christmas wore me out physically and financially this year...sad isnt it.
Hope you are all well.xxx
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Post by Deleted on Jan 5, 2018 11:40:40 GMT
La Sevillana roses are beautiful.
 I'm glad you had something to offset the times.
"So what happens new years day...my hot water service blows up $2000...I have that in the bank but it takes 30 days to clear. It might be summer here but a cold shower is cold. I was a bit distraught when my gentleman friend rang...he said calm down...I will pay for it and when your cash comes through you pay me back...how lucky can a psycho be. He came down , a 2 hour drive, and got it working enough for me to have a shower, he takes in strays, I think I am one of them."
This is another offsetting event. Even though the water failure was bad...your lucky psycho factor kicked in !! 
This too, sounds pretty positive: "So tired after the Christmas clean and cook and clean, plus my son turned 21 and it was the first time his father and I sat at the same table but my farmer friend was invited too so he behaved." It may have provided some closure...?
I've felt this way myself: "it is like a twilight zone Keith"...more often than I'd want to admit.
Up here in the frozen tundra, we're at -12 F (-21 C) degrees, It's been ugly like this for 10 days and we've got at least one more day. I know about hot water problems...we woke up to frozen pipes with no water several days. I had to fire up the wood burner and divert the air flow under the house to free them up.
It was very good to hear from you Sue...I've missed you. Your courage and tenacity are inspiring.
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Post by Sketcher2 on Jan 6, 2018 5:03:33 GMT
I have been single all my adult life and I think it is ok. You have lots of freedom to do what you want. The only bad thing is that you don't have someone to share your ups and downs with. And sometimes it gets lonely. But it is better to be in no relationship than a bad relationship. I had a guy interested in me and showering me with gifts but when I wouldn't let him touch me on the shoulder he turned against me and would be rude as to not reply as whether he was coming to our parties. People are really ugly when it comes down to many people that I have seen but if you have true love it is precious and life giving. I am glad that I never liked this guy because if I had cared for him, he would have so much power to do me harm.
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Post by David on Jan 8, 2018 18:12:44 GMT
Good to observe this topic continuing in its popularity whatever contributions/feedback keeps it there Sue.
Getting back on topic... Whatever we feel that is right for us as individuals... re single or partnership status is all that really matters...
Beyond that I am not sufficiently qualified to say!
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Post by Deleted on Jan 10, 2018 11:55:29 GMT
I have been single all my adult life and I think it is ok. You have lots of freedom to do what you want. The only bad thing is that you don't have someone to share your ups and downs with. And sometimes it gets lonely. But it is better to be in no relationship than a bad relationship. I had a guy interested in me and showering me with gifts but when I wouldn't let him touch me on the shoulder he turned against me and would be rude as to not reply as whether he was coming to our parties. People are really ugly when it comes down to many people that I have seen but if you have true love it is precious and life giving. I am glad that I never liked this guy because if I had cared for him, he would have so much power to do me harm.
I myself, have spent periods of extreme independence during my life...by choice. When young (20's), it was because I wished to remain sexually available. The sixties offered unprecedented access to others...couldn't pass that up. Later, I wanted peace and focus so I'd avoid relations to engage in long term introspection and self education. But since thirty-five; I've found security, excitement, and fulfillment with just one person...full time. I can't imagine being alone. |
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Post by Sketcher2 on Jan 11, 2018 3:43:37 GMT
No I am not averse to touch. It would have been different if I had cared for him.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 11, 2018 3:57:58 GMT
No I am not averse to touch. It would have been different if I had cared for him. |
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Post by diesel on Jan 23, 2018 6:17:22 GMT
Hi Sue. I missed you so much. Glad to hear from you!
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Post by sue13 on Jan 24, 2018 19:56:46 GMT
Looks like I missed some responses here..no wonder uni was too much...Hi Jody, Keith, Warpigs, Hercs and everyone else.
Young daughter inherited the cats, the birds, the house and the life insurance and hasnt contacted us since. She is set for life. Her father recently underwent major surgery and her sister asked her to ring or message him as he wanted to touch base ...she said she was too busy.
Hercs if you arent up to speed yes Chelle has had her surgery, that woman is truly amazing.
I hope you are all well friends.
My friend and I have decided to be companions at our age...if he finds someone less complicated he is free to walk away, no questions asked, that is far easier for my head to deal with...these illnesses are hell for us and very confusing for those who love us...he hated visiting the hospital I was in yet to me it is a beautiful healing place.
We went away for a couple of days this week with his teenage daughter, we do all the family things together, he rings first thing to make sure I have got through the night...when my Hot Water Service blew up and I had to wait 30 days to get my money out of the bank he advanced me the money, I know it is summr but I love a warm shower...he is a good man, a bit of a flirty girty but he is an entertainer...and he we are best friends and at our age that is what counts.
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Post by sue13 on Jan 24, 2018 20:11:41 GMT
Yes Keith there is some sense of moving on not letting that little man (the childrens father) have his way monopolizing the dinner out with his bossy ways. It was chinese and for 30 years he has insisted we all ordr something different then we share...I hate that...so does my son in law, so he says "shall we all share" my son in law says no...so I say I'll pass too...hahaha...if looks could kill...but it sounds so silly but it was an amazingly powerful moment, when I was telling pdoc...he laughed...one of those belly laughs that start at your toes and rumbles through your belly and ends up like a kookabuura...he has been my doctor for 13 years I am so very lucky, I love to make him laugh but the ex was very controlling.
I wish it was drugs that caused the disassociation not this temporal lobe thing,
I could stop drugs.
It certainly keeps me in the moment, no day dreaming in case I dont come back.
Courage...I really do not want to go into care Keith...not ever...a few weeks in the hsopital is fine but I love my independence.
Thet think I have glaucome now, Dad and Nanna were blind by 60 but they have caught this with just 25% of my left eye they will be certain on March 19 when I have had all the testing done...I will be 60 this year.
Taake care x
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Post by David on Jan 27, 2018 0:38:12 GMT
Happy Australia Day Sue!
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Post by David on Feb 14, 2018 23:47:21 GMT
How are you doing Sue?
Just checking in on you as per usual...
for I frequently think about you...
even when you are not here!
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Post by David on Feb 15, 2018 4:52:30 GMT
PS., Out of sight does
not always equate to out of mind..
not in my eyes or my mind ! lol
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Post by David on Feb 21, 2018 2:05:10 GMT
How are you coping presently Sue
as I've indicated before now it is my way of checking up on you..
I hope you don't mind< David x
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