Post by sue13 on Aug 6, 2017 1:08:33 GMT
Hello from winter in SA...
Well I have spent the last 3 weeks in hospital,
I think I started going down hill after an overdose in April and never really picked up.
It got to the point I didnt know which day it was and had 3 minor car accidents in one day...anyway next thing I knew my eldest and youngest were by my bed with an ambulance and I refused to go and this was the first time they said I had no choice.
Eldest is a nurse and said Mum easier if you go voluntarily.
Spent 2 days in a corridor of a major hospital, no beds, one night in the short stay ward and then off to the Clinic that is my second home.
They have upped my anticonvulsants x5 now on 1000mg of sodium valporate and they have dropped duloxotene and introduced dome new one and still on mirtazapine and seroquel...it was tough yards in the hospital this time, I was suicidal on 2 occassions.Yes it was *****...excuse me.
To top it off the chap I have been seeing was in Adelaide one Saturday and couldnt be bothered to come and see me, i was so furious I went to the art room and destroyed a painting I had been working on for days...the nurses got me to ring him when I had been medicated and say I was sad he didnt see me in hospital as a priority....he said he didnt think the guards would let him in...Guards...there are no guards duh....
He then visited for 6 minutes another time...6 friggin minutes.
Needless to say I am far from impressed.
He has helped me out financially with the extended hospital stay and it his birthday is on Tuesday and I go to the oncologist with him on Wednesday but once I have paid him back I will put more and more distance there...no I had one who couldnt handle my illness and I will not be ashamed of the fact I am sick, its not a choice it is the cards that are dealt...I will not apologize nor have people ignore my illness when I am sick...if some one says they love you love is a verb.
Anyway one of the nurses thought she would scare me and told me they were transferring me to the public sector, my heart broke, I thought pdoc had dumped me...I was SO upset I got nurse daughter to ring to find out what the hell was happening, well did the nurse back pedal...pdoc was furious, I was dumped at 3 by my parents, 15 by my aunt and uncle,22 by my first husband, 47 by my second husband and to think pdoc had given up on me was devastating...it is so hard to love some one unconditionally who has these illnesses..its not fair but that is life.
Any way the new meds seem to be doing the trick, I am inspired to do more things around the house, even planning my back yard.
I hope you are all well.
xxx
Well I have spent the last 3 weeks in hospital,
I think I started going down hill after an overdose in April and never really picked up.
It got to the point I didnt know which day it was and had 3 minor car accidents in one day...anyway next thing I knew my eldest and youngest were by my bed with an ambulance and I refused to go and this was the first time they said I had no choice.
Eldest is a nurse and said Mum easier if you go voluntarily.
Spent 2 days in a corridor of a major hospital, no beds, one night in the short stay ward and then off to the Clinic that is my second home.
They have upped my anticonvulsants x5 now on 1000mg of sodium valporate and they have dropped duloxotene and introduced dome new one and still on mirtazapine and seroquel...it was tough yards in the hospital this time, I was suicidal on 2 occassions.Yes it was *****...excuse me.
To top it off the chap I have been seeing was in Adelaide one Saturday and couldnt be bothered to come and see me, i was so furious I went to the art room and destroyed a painting I had been working on for days...the nurses got me to ring him when I had been medicated and say I was sad he didnt see me in hospital as a priority....he said he didnt think the guards would let him in...Guards...there are no guards duh....
He then visited for 6 minutes another time...6 friggin minutes.
Needless to say I am far from impressed.
He has helped me out financially with the extended hospital stay and it his birthday is on Tuesday and I go to the oncologist with him on Wednesday but once I have paid him back I will put more and more distance there...no I had one who couldnt handle my illness and I will not be ashamed of the fact I am sick, its not a choice it is the cards that are dealt...I will not apologize nor have people ignore my illness when I am sick...if some one says they love you love is a verb.
Anyway one of the nurses thought she would scare me and told me they were transferring me to the public sector, my heart broke, I thought pdoc had dumped me...I was SO upset I got nurse daughter to ring to find out what the hell was happening, well did the nurse back pedal...pdoc was furious, I was dumped at 3 by my parents, 15 by my aunt and uncle,22 by my first husband, 47 by my second husband and to think pdoc had given up on me was devastating...it is so hard to love some one unconditionally who has these illnesses..its not fair but that is life.
Any way the new meds seem to be doing the trick, I am inspired to do more things around the house, even planning my back yard.
I hope you are all well.
xxx
