hey remember me?

Yes of course I do Mike
 if you are the same young man
 who hails from  Ontario?

I am sure others will also!

Hi, David!

I'm glad your still here, I remember you well, we talked a lot you probably remember a lot about me with your memory

Well David thanks for asking how I'm doing, I'm doing good recently, early this year however I had a bad relapse and spent 4 months in the hospital.
My lawyer told me he's talked to the crown and I'm being sentenced to house arrest 2 months and probation I'm just waiting for the final step now.
I've never been in trouble with the law before besides when I was 14 for marijuana possession it's legal here now
anyway you feel kinda like a mouse at the mercy of a cat but I swear when I get through this I will be a better
person, I'm ashamed enough of my behaviour that cold winter night I don't wanna talk about it you'll think less of me it's not bad so much as
stupid and embarrassing.
It was a scary! thing for me lack of a better word "thing". Such
as a black and white horror movie "day of the thing" to find that out what was going to happen, I was really sick in the hospital until I started to
get better and come to my senses and reality started kicking in I started thinking oh my god what was I thinking how could I be so stupid.

I went a long time without taking any meds, dealing with anger, paranoia, ruminating thoughts - I tried to self medicate with alcohol  I'll
never drink again.

I'm lonely, I don't have many people to talk to anymore.

I go to a drop in center once or twice a week, they have groups and we play
games and stuff, I'm trying to get to know some of the people that go there,
we made a time capsule to be opened in 1 year we wrote down how were doing etc what our goals and interests are
etc. and something to remember like I put in a bunch of Dilbert comic strips I cut out from the paper where their all sitting around the
office wearing masks for covid. 

I'm sorry to hear about your mom and the dialysis that sounds great with little house.someting you can call your own and not have to pay rent.
Maybe you can think of some hobbies you like to do to keep yourself busy we are here for you too although sometimes it's slow around here due to people getting busy in thier own lives but eventually someone will come on and reply.

I'm happy we all still keep in contact here thanks to Hercules and David for helping him moderate
I think diesel will be happy to see you here I think you two used to have a lot of interaction on MT if I remember right

Hi again Mike ,

I sorry you have been in a bit of bother, resulting in a home curfew.
I can understand your frustration at such an outcome equally the
loneliness caused by same.

On a more  positive note .I am pleased you now have your own place to live
and the space that goes with it in terms of independence.

I never got to know your age back when we were with MT. It was obvious

that you were young, and still are. So I am going to take a guess and suggest
now a days in your  mid twenties, No better time to have left the nest.
And once you are free to circulate again, 'The world will be your oyster'.

Obviously going off your meds and trying to substitute them  with alcohol, was a bad idea.
That is the price you have paid for , by first been hospitalised for several month and more currently
penalised further, by a curtailment of movement. The only saving grace is that you are allowed
to attend a day centre which is better than nothing I suppose. It may not be fun but is one way of
getting out of the house.

The time capsule event is quite a novel thing to participate in , and I chuckled at the Dilbert
cartoon  re the mask wearing.  At least you still have a sense of humour. 

I  have also noted your current loneliness and hope that will fade into the distance
once you are free of  the limitations on your movement.

In the meantime, keep sharing with us here, as often as you like, I for one will always respond.
I trust that goes for other members also!