Going Back into hospital 16th May.

It should go without saying,  nevertheless I am saying it anyway...

I hope and pray all goes well and your stay is only as long as you wish it to be Sue

Providing it is sufficient for you to  feel much better as a result of such voluntary
planned   time out, as opposed to  unplanned involuntary incarceration... 

whereby we have lost the cognitive ability  to take care of ourselves.

Fondest regards, you being a significant other in my life
over many a year,   David x 

;-;

it appears to me the Jeff is hospital phobic 

if that be the case  it is not so much an affront to you personally

more a genuine distaste to such an environment.


The good news is your going in as a voluntary admission 

therefore have the choice of staying or leaving...

which would obviously not be the case if sectioned.

As an aside to what you have been sharing 

way back to 1988 I  was voluntarily admitted to a psychiatric unit 

attached to my local general hospital  in order to detox in a safe environment.

I got lots of visitors .. I thought they were all about coming to see me.

It did not take me long to come to the conclusion that it was possibly their first time

in such a facility...  for I noticed as I was conversing with them, they were distracted;

by that I mean their eyes were  in the main focused on other 'inmates' and what they were up to

as opposed to sticking to eye contact with   and listening to me as much as would have liked.

Which made me conclude that I was  not the primary  reason for  them turning up. lol

This is a very interesting thread. I myself feel like I am on the edge of sanity or on the edge of becoming a target to be returned to hospital or worse.

Some reasons include synchronicities, on a long term scale (graduated high school at 18-19; returned to 175th high school reunion at 36), plus possible shadowing by former classmates?? (impossible, right? It was just a coincidence...right?)... Very difficult to describe. Have clues that some yearbook write ups were cyphers, which would explain their near-nonsensical interpretation at first glance. I suppose this is just all "business".

I am not sure why. I think it could be delusions or psychosis. For another example, I feel like... I have been inspired to need to become stronger again, as in, increase my overall fitness and stamina and then return to survive, evade, resist, and escape (SERE) mode to try doing the right thing all the time again (as opposed to keeping stress levels low at all times) but have to fight slights and pretty much incomprehensible attacks from unknown enemies/foes... To inspire the people who may one day face similar engagement or subjugation.

I think it was at least rude of your youngest to say "section her already", but I am unaware of her motivation or suffering.

I've had it good for the past decade. Things may be cyclical... Good, then bad, bad then, good... And a mix of inbetween to just make things more confusing.

I mean, like you said, once you are in their system, you sort of have a platform too, you know. Your actions, words, etc, can be misinterpreted and misread for nefarious purposes or perhaps for just plain stupid reasons, but you have a wiggly platform to balance on and life can slow to a crawl (I suppose), before it speeds up again.